i made a master list last week of all the things i need to accomplish, in general. some are small. some aren’t so small. so one of my goals is to check off at least one thing a day on it. until there is no list. and yesterday i checked off two. today i really must go to the bank for several reasons. and call senderra (which i did so now i am waiting for a call back). i also need to clean up my flat. and then i am going to work on my soulcollage cards. that’s all i got off the top of my head. but i will be checking the master list to see if i am forgetting something. i am going to make today count and stop my slacker ways. it has really been a slacker type week for me. lots of sleeping and feeling blah and unmotivated. procrastinating. but not today. i am awake!
it’s friday :) August 31, 2007
physically: my neck feels a bit sore. i might have slept on it wrong. otherwise i feel awake and raring to go.
emotionally: cheery
goal: complete all my errands for the day.
affirmation: i can do it.
i’m not anorexic. really. August 31, 2007
this week eating wise hasn’t been too stellar. mainly because i haven’t been eating that much. but hey, i haven’t been gorging on sugar either so that’s a plus. for breakfast i had cereal with soymilk. lunch was two pieces of toast with smart balance and strawberry preserves. dinner was two veggie corn dogs. i can hear foi now scolding me in the background. but i went to the grocery store today and have filled up my kitchen again. oranges, plums, strawberries, honeydew. aged cheddar rosemary boule. honey flax bread. granola bars. chips to go with the jar of salsa left outside my door. (they are doing a promotion and everyone got a complimentary jar of salsa). two amy’s mexican casseroles and two boxes of morningstar corn dogs because i haven’t seen them in a while. so i got two just in case. pasta sauce and a box of penne. so see, foi, i have food in my kitchen. and i am going to get back on my daily action wagon which should make me feel hungry again.
i think i need to start logging what i eat. since sometimes i don’t eat that much and other times i eat too much sugar. okay, i resolve to keep a food diary for a week. for observation purposes.
i hate making titles for community August 31, 2007
physically: a bit tired. which is good since it’s nighttime and all.
emotionally: happy. i just talked to my friend melody for 2 hours. it was great.
high: hmmm, talking to melody and getting computer fixed
low: feeling so blah
goal: yes, i went to art therapy and even had a mini individual session afterwards. and i finally got up the courage to talk to renee. that has been on my goal list all week.
thankful: for joe cleaning up izzy’s laptop and making it like new! for some reason it wouldn’t let me log onto the computer so i couldn’t access anything. well, joe cleaned up the hard drive ?? and got rid of outdated stuff and whatever. he did computer magic and now it runs really fast and i can access everything which means i can get on the internet again. 
short agenda August 30, 2007
i have been feeling really blah this week. i don’t know what my deal is. it’s a complete 180 from last week. not accomplishing too much. not feeling so hopeful anymore. not feeling too much of anything except for blah. i think today will be better. have art therapy. have swimming. on the agenda for today is to go to grocery store and the bank. and talk to renee. as painful as that is going to be. . . and try to be happy .
title August 30, 2007
physically: awake
emotionally: blah
goal: go to art therapy
affirmation: i am productive and useful
before i forget August 29, 2007
i wanted to note this last week but you know, i didn’t have internet access. and i think it is important to record this for posterity lest i forget. last week, on thursday or friday, i caught a glimpse of my jeans-clad self in the mirror, and i saw myself as i truly was. not through the distorted glass that i usually view myself. it felt good to have clarity for a moment. can’t say that it’s happened again though. that’s all.
interesting. . . August 29, 2007
when i use joe’s computer my community posts come out funny and i don’t know why. it’s been a few days since i’ve posted because i am having some computer issues. and here’s what i noticed. i had every intention of doing my communities in my notebook since i couldn’t get online. but i didn’t. and not only did i not check in with myself sun-tues but i also didn’t do my daily action or my meditations and my week has definitely suffered some for it. i can notice the difference in how i feel and in my daily outlook. it’s interesting. so for the rest of this week i strive to resume the daily actions and meditations. and take it from there.
community with myself August 29, 2007
physically: a bit tired
emotionally: hopeful
goal: make bank payment
affirmation: i am creating a wonderful new job
friday August 25, 2007
wordpress is being weird today. it won’t let me format my post the way i want to. oh well. my goals for the weekend include continuing to keep up with my daily action and meditations, engage in some form of physical activity, make a master list of all the things i want to accomplish in general with MP, life, etc and then get organized about it. that’s all i got. yesterday was a fantastic day. my internet wasn’t working for some reason so i wasn’t able to check in, but i woke up feeling so carefree and light-hearted. it was wonderful. i read a book. took a giant nap. and woke up super awake and energized and carefree all over again. i really think it was the swimming that made me wake up feeling so good. it was a nice, relaxing day. hopefully the weekend will continue in that vein. and oh, i still managed to fit in my meditations although i did skip out on the daily action.
