so i did all my dreaded errands today. i hate banks. they really suck. and i remembered to get water. i feel bad whenever joe asks me to do something and i take forever to do it because i am always forgetting or sometimes i am plum lazy. i am trying to work on that. trying to work on the doing energy to balance out all of my being energy.
today i had granola and soy milk for breakfast. for lunch i made a nutella and banana sandwich on sourdough and some garden salsa sun chips. and i rationed. i got one of the dipping bowls and filled it with chips. it looked like the amount that would come in those little bags. and when they were gone i resisted the urge to get more. and i really did want more. they are really really good. i got chips at the store in lieu of sugar. because i am not real big on salty things and i can eat them when i have comfort junk food cravings or as a little treat or snack. as the example with the chips at lunch i am much more disciplined. and i got regular chips too to go with all of that free salsa. for dinner i had hummus and pita, and a falafel pita sandwich. and gelato for dessert. last week i had ice cream on friday night. i think i am doing really well on my sugar diet. i am cutting out all of the little sugars (candy, chocolates, etc) during the week and then treating myself to one nice dessert on the weekends. it’s working out so far. and i think maybe i am appreciating it a bit more. and definitely not feeling guilty about it, which is nice.
for the rest of the weekend my goals are as follows:
meals: prepare at least one meal a day. and when i work on labor day make sure i bring healthful snacks to work so i am not tempted by the food court.
spirit: hand over my work anxiety to spirit per jamie’s suggestion. and then do something positive to redirect my energy. also do my daily actions each morning along with the meditations. work more on my soulcollage cards. journal about how i equate my self worth with my job.
life: write penpal letter. gather all materials for proposal to send to matt. call violet back about spring show. make word file of resume.
fun: hang out with amethyst on sunday and izzy on saturday. read a challenge book.
job: come up with new plan. make a list of all my options and how to execute.
