this week i wound up being really tired. i did write a letter on monday in the little red journal autumn and i send back and forth. i spent tuesday and wednesday with K. thursday i came home and promptly went to sleep for two hours. woke up at 7 and was too tired and unmotivated to do anything else. friday i chilled out and read The Almost Moon with blankets and hot tea. it was a cold week. i think this had a lot to do with my lack of energy. so this friday is Imbolc. amethyst and i made a commitment to each other at the beginning of the year that we would celebrate all of the holidays together. so we are going to get together this friday for the first sabbat of the year. i finished re-reading amber k’s candlemas book. there are some really good ideas in it. basically the focus of imbolc is cleansing and purification. light. new year. brigid. amethyst and i are going to cook a proper feast but we haven’t planned the ritual yet. i would like to focus on the creativity aspect of brigid since we just did the cleansing a few weeks ago. but i do feel inspired by the cleansing and purification chapter and am going to dedicate this week to it. not too long ago i did thoroughly clean and de-clutter but i’m going to do it again. now would be a good time to get rid of the box of to-be-shred documents. and i am a big fan of spring cleaning. clutter and hidden dirt do accumulate so quickly and it always feels so good after a thorough cleaning. and i am going to do the body/mind stuff too. the book suggests fasting for 1-3 days. i have never fasted before. it kind of scares me. mostly my ability to do it. but i feel up to trying. i think it will be a worthwhile experience and i’m sure i’ll learn some things about myself. i just feel very much like getting into the spirit of this holy day. it’s been in the back of my mind all month and honestly, looking back, i think i have been laying the groundwork for it all month. and with Imbolc, i will be clearing out the final vestiges of all i want to be rid of, laying a fresh foundation for my new year goals to grow on. so this week i will fast, come home and clean and de-clutter and end each evening with a ritual bath, meditation and light yoga. i think i could benefit from going in. i have felt myself become a bit unbalanced during the past week and a half. one lesson that is hard to remember, acknowledge and live by is that when things start looking up and one feels good it’s easy to let go of the activities that got one there in the first place. maintaining harmony and equilibrium is an ongoing process. this will be my first holy week ever. i have never ever celebrated in such a manner. i’m kind of looking forward to it.
weekly review January 21, 2008
even though i slacked off a bit this week it still felt good. i ate that leftover soup for lunch for a couple of days. i maintained morning routine for the first part of the week but by mid-week i slept in until 6:30, fit in a meditation and that was it. didn’t do anything for my evening routine. even slacked off on my yoga practice. but i don’t feel bad about my week. i still feel like i ate well. i didn’t eat out save for thursday when K and i went to pei wei. had that for lunch on thursday. and here it is sunday evening and my fridge is completely empty save for five oranges, which means i ate all my groceries. last week i was subsisting off the wedding goodies (veggies, cheese, crackers, cake). today i made my grocery list. i am going to make samosas and lentil soup for my two recipes. i have these taste of india ready-made curry dishes that i am going to eat with my samosas and basmati rice. not tired of oranges, yogurt, granola bars yet, which complement leftovers for lunch. realized i wasn’t in the salad mood as that was the only produce to go to waste these past two weeks. this week i am going to work on my evening routine. my morning one is almost cemented. and i think it is perfectly okay to sleep in once a week and skimp a bit. i feel that for the most part i am going strong on my goals. i am eating so much better since i started working full-time again. i am back on a regular feeding schedule and my body thanks me. i just need to be more vigilant on the physical activity part. i do feel really good when i am active but it has been so cold these past couple of weeks that it has been difficult for me to motivate myself. i did write letters last week and deliver them. so that’s one point for evening routine. well, here’s to an even more productive week.
small accomplishments October 13, 2007
physically: a bit tired but eyes are open
emotionally: determined
goal: meditate
affirmation: i am prosperous and vibrant, full of vitality
things i have managed to do:
get that bank account
send off appeal
clean yucky bathroom, unclog sink, do dishes, scour counters. only thing left is the floors.
wake up at 10:30am after getting home at 2:30am from work and staying awake. hopefully i will be productive today and not be too tired at work tonight.
3 to 10:30 is 7 and a half hours of sleep so why should i still feel so tired?
and tomorrow i have to work at fossil because i picked up a shift from 2 to 7.
i wonder if i will be able to get up before 8 next saturday for the walk-a-thon. . .
so it’s been awhile September 21, 2007
not having regular computer access is now making it tricky to keep up with this blog. i can’t do my communities regularly. i can’t refer back to my goals and lists and whatnot. but i am not going to let that stop me. hopefully i will be in the way of regular computer access again. i have been doing pretty good at bringing my own food to work and resisting the temptations of the food court, specifically frullati and their deliciously unhealthy strawberry banana smoothies. except for this week since i have been sick. smoothies is about all i can eat. and ever since i made a schedule for myself i haven’t really had the opportunity to abide by it. this week went out the window since i have been ill. can’t work out when ill. have mostly been sleeping and reading. and working a shift here and there. since i don’t have regular computer access i am going to strive for using my mind log again for my communities. aim for at least weekly updates on here if not more. and that’s all i got for the moment. too tired and ill to think anymore.
