weekend update September 2, 2007

well, i’m not so good at sticking to my goals for the weekend.  although i still have the rest of today to make a dent.  i have been keeping up with my daily action and meditations.  i’ve started marking each day on my calendar that i do to keep track, visually.  yesterday i went to lunch with izzy which took place of breakfast because i slept so late.  we went to bennigan’s and i had a black bean burger with fries.  later that day joe and i went to dinner at this little local burger joint that he loves.  they have very good fries and they make grilled cheeses.  but i opted for nachos instead.  they were really good too.  they had whole pinto beans instead of refried and lots of jalapenos and good shredded cheese.   not really good on the health scale.  and then he took me out for a sundae after.  so i have a hard time trying to eat at home on weekends with joe.  i offered to cook dinner for us last night but he declined.  today we had frozen waffles for breakfast.  we went to the museum and after we left we were both hungry.  i offered to make us lunch but he wanted to go out.  he even asked me what was up with me and trying to cook meals for us.  i said i was trying to be healthier and because i have all of these groceries.  the thing is, joe likes to go out on the weekends because he stays in all week.  and when it comes to me trying to cook for us, we have very different tastes in food.  the only thing i could make and share really would be pasta and salad.  he does not have an adventurous palate at all.  i am even surprised he even likes pei wei at all.  which is what he counter suggested after i offered to cook us lunch at home.  he knows what i like.  so to pei wei we went.  he always gets the sweet and sour chicken.  so for lunch i had honey seared vegetables and tofu with brown rice.  so so good.  and i ate two fortune cookies.  but later, when i get hungry.  i am cooking/preparing my own meal.

i am feeling really tired today and very unmotivated.  what i hope to do with the rest of my day is read a little bit, wash my delicates, work on my soulcollage cards and write my penpal letter.  i have given up on cleaning my flat this weekend.  too unmotivated to do it.  as long as i keep up with my dishes and the kitchen i feel okay about it.  i hope i start feeling more energetic soon.

well that’s all i got for now.  maybe i will check back later to remark on what i ended up doing.

going to make this weekend count. September 1, 2007

so i did all my dreaded errands today.  i hate banks.  they really suck.  and i remembered to get water. i feel bad whenever joe asks me to do something and i take forever to do it because i am always forgetting or sometimes i am plum lazy.  i am trying to work on that.  trying to work on the doing energy to balance out all of my being energy.

today i had granola and soy milk for breakfast.  for lunch i made a nutella and banana sandwich on sourdough and some garden salsa sun chips.  and i rationed.  i got one of the dipping bowls and filled it with chips.  it looked like the amount that would come in those little bags.  and when they were gone i resisted the urge to get more.  and i really did want more.  they are really really good.  i got chips at the store in lieu of sugar.  because i am not real big on salty things and i can eat them when i have comfort junk food cravings or as a little treat or snack.  as the example with the chips at lunch i am much more disciplined.  and i got regular chips too to go with all of that free salsa.  for dinner i had hummus and pita, and a falafel pita sandwich.  and gelato for dessert.  last week i had ice cream on friday night.  i think i am doing really well on my sugar diet.  i am cutting out all of the little sugars (candy, chocolates, etc) during the week and then treating myself to one nice dessert on the weekends.  it’s working out so far.  and i think maybe i am appreciating it a bit more.  and definitely not feeling guilty about it, which is nice.

for the rest of the weekend my goals are as follows:

meals: prepare at least one meal a day.  and when i work on labor day make sure i bring healthful snacks to work so i am not tempted by the food court.

spirit: hand over my work anxiety to spirit per jamie’s suggestion.  and then do something positive to redirect my energy.  also do my daily actions each morning along with the meditations.  work more on my soulcollage cards.  journal about how i equate my self worth with my job.

life: write penpal letter.  gather all materials for proposal to send to matt.  call violet back about spring show.  make word file of resume.

fun: hang out with amethyst on sunday and izzy on saturday.  read a challenge book.

job: come up with new plan.  make a list of all my options and how to execute.