community January 29, 2008

01/29/08 morning-physically: awake; emotionally: content, calm, anticipation; goal: fast; affirmation; i can do it.   01/29/08 evening-physically: sore in my back, a little hungry; emotionally: calm, kinda blah; goal: yes.  i completed my first day off fasting.  high: successful non eating lunch with my cup of green tea and good conversation.  low: feeling mildly grumpy all morning.  thankful for: a call from v, my resolve, observation, friends, good work environment, another jeans day tomorrow.    01/30/08 morning-physically: a slight headache, slightly hungry; emotionally: calm; goal: get through my second day of fasting; affirmation: i am pure spirit.  01/30/08 evening-physically: floaty, tired; emotionally: buoyant, calm, centered, grounded; goal: completed; thankful for: strength of will, audio books, a warm, cooked meal, good nan.  01/31/08 morning-physically: slight cough, scratchy throat; emotionally: grumpy, irritated; goal: complete my fast, white light meditation 01/31/08 evening: physically: scratchy throat, back sore, cold; emotionally: anticipation; goal: completed; thankful for: strength of will, new work friend, finally being able to buy moisturizer, the awareness this week has brought me. 02/04/08 morning-physically: very tired; emotionally: numb; goal: write a letter; affirmation: i am healing on all levels. 02/04/08 evening-physically: exhausted; emotionally: drained; goal: didn’t do, too tired; thankful for: a good first showing on the scorecard, a record number of promises by the end of the day, an evening well spent with my friend michael, kitty-kitty’s unwavering affections.  meditation, sun salutations, morning pages, 3 checks.  02/05/08 morning-physically: rested; emotionally: blank; goal: complete list on desktop; affirmation: i am healing on all levels, i am pure spirit.  02/05/08 evening-physically: tired, tired, tired; emotionally: calmer, happier, more optimistic, more like myself; goal: yes! thankful for: reflections and their lessons and wisdom, friends, cold pizza, baking that turns out, kitty-kitty, my flat my sanctuary.  02/06/08 evening-physically: shaky; emotionally: crushed, reeling, heartbroken, desolate, cavernous, numb; goal: no goal set today; thankful for; kitty-kitty, amethyst, good work day, liking my job, new work friends, bubble baths, sweet sweet sanctuary.02/07/08 morning-physically: awake; emotionally: determined; goal: stay strong; affirmation: fake it until you make it, do spite you feel.  02/07/08 evening-physically: tired; emotionally: drained; goal: i’d say so; high: izzy time; low: heartbreak; thankful for: spiral goodness, good friends, rose quartz, kitty-kitty.   02/08/08 morning-physically: tired; emotionally: drained; goal: mail letters; affirmation: do in spite of how you feel.  02/08/08 evening-physically: okay; emotionally: blah; goal: nope; high: good day at work. . . ? low: heart flare-ups; thankful for: friends, emailing, work buddies, laughter.  02/09/08 morning-physically: ache in my chest, cramps in my belly; emotionally: angry, drained, wildly sad, erratic, broken, uncertain, tenuous; goal: get through the fucking day; affirmation: DO IN SPITE OF HOW YOU FEEL.  02/20/08 morning-physically: awake, sexual, itchy neck; emotional: satisfied, anticipation, excited; goal: french grammar; affirmation: i am a confident woman