so i made my two recipes. yay! and they were good too. monday night was ever so productive. and i made the butternut recipe in advance for tuesday. i brought my lunch to work each day save for friday because l-squared invited foi and moi out. we went to jason’s deli. i did bring poptarts each morning but found they left me really hungry in a couple of hours as opposed to whataburger’s egg and potato taquitos. they hold me over until lunch. i made the second recipe friday night with my friend, K. i took the mashed potatoes for lunch one day. ate all my apples. the only thing in my fridge that i was not successful at making/taking/eating was my salad. and i had even purchased alfalfa sprouts. perhaps i need a different dressing. or maybe i just wasn’t in the mood for salad. i did my morning routine monday and tuesday. but for the rest of the week i slept in graciously. i knew i would do it ahead of time, set the alarm for 6:30 and gave myself permission for it. i needed extra sleep time i think to absorb the benefits of the cleansing rite from tuesday night. things are set up. my lists are made and accessible. i think i am progressing along just fine. this week i will resume my morning routine and attempt to put some of these evening ones into place. all in all a good week.
lalalala January 8, 2008
physically: a bit sore in my external rotator cuffs, awake, alert; emotionally: anticipation, grounded, centered; goal: have a successful evening with my friends; affirmation: i can do it!
checking back January 8, 2008
physically: sore in my lower back, tired; emotionally: calm, buoyant, hopeful, peaceful, energetic, happy, content; high: making dinner while listening to harry potter; low: no low; goal: completed; thankful: my friends, talking to danielle, my yoga practice and the aliveness it brings me, seeing foi and l-squared every day, being productive this evening, getting home after 8 hours of work and still having plenty of energy to spare, kitty-kitty time. meditation, sun salutations, morning pages all a check for today. and i scratched off all the things for my evening to-do list. and guess what? that included making dinner. one of this week’s chosen recipes. and it was fun. hope it tastes good. . .
back to basics January 7, 2008
physically: awake
emotionally: buoyant, content, hopeful, eager, patient
goal: go to store and get remainder of supplies for tomorrow and then do candle/water cleansing
affirmation: new year, new hope!
plans for the future January 6, 2008
so my main focus for this year is to establish routine, MY routine, MY structure. i have spent enough time and enough years being haphazard. something i have learned from this past year is that while i still dislike every hour and every moment to be planned i thrive, actually THRIVE, when i have some sort of routine, such as established meal times, regular exercise, regular activities planned. the hard part is maintaining it. in the hospital it was done for me. it was really easy. but you know, i am going to be 27 this year. isn’t it high time i set out and create the life i want to live from my head into actual reality? when i have someone in my life i adapt too much to their routines sacrificing my own needs and desires. it happens every time. and really the only way i know how to counteract this is to actually ESTABLISH my own way of life rather than just dream about it. seems like i have wasted a lot of time, huh? but there always seems to be something getting in the way-school, lack of money, new boyfriend, whatever. not this year. i don’t expect to change overnight but i do need to remain vigilant. notice what works and what doesn’t. i want regular mealtimes, regularly cooked meals, regular meditation practice, regular yoga practice. regular spiritual practice. is that asking too much? so this week the plan is to start slow. i am going to attempt to make two recipes, two SIMPLE recipes. butternut squash with coconut curry and ginger cauliflower soup. i already have my morning routine in practice. i wake up and meditate for 15-20 minutes. then i do a few rounds of sun salutations. then i write my morning pages. then i get ready for work. sometimes i write my morning pages at work since i get there early. when i get home i would like to engage in yoga (i eat my snack on the commute home). then shower and be ready for the evening which should include some simple cooking, reading, writing. i am thinking of giving a theme to each day so i don’t feel like i have to fit everything into one day. like a french day, a letter writing day, a cooking day. i don’t want to cook everyday but i want to eat like i used to. i want to incorporate running into my regular physical routine when the weather turns nicer. mix it up. i really want a bike. l-squared has a bike. she said if i get a bike we can bike together. and it would be a good investment for when i move to an urban city. i want to get into a regular practice of sunday being preparation day. grocery shopping, planning the meals for the week. cooking as much as i can so i don’t have to be overwhelmed by it during the week. prepare lunches for the week. you know, cutting veggies/fruit and pre-packaging them. making little lunch rows in the refrigerator so all i have to do is grab and run in the morning. are these too big of aspirations? i don’t think so. not if i ease into it and remain gentle with myself whenever i slip up. so today i shop. the list is made. only two recipes to make. the rest of the week will be leftovers and simple salads and sandwiches. lunches will be salad, leftovers, fruit, yogurt and granola. breakfast can be poptarts. on-the-way-home snack will be apples. monday i hope to pre-cook tuesday’s meal because my friends are coming over for a special evening and it would be nice to only have to heat up that night’s dinner. yeah. so there it is. i got my first yoga journal of the year and since i have a gift subscription i will be getting it every month. and there is so much useful information within those pages. sometimes i tear them out but they end up getting lost and unused. so in a burst of inspiration i made a notebook with dividers for the anatomy pages, the basic pose pages, the master class pages, the recipes i like, and the spiritual exercises that interest me. and it’s on my counter with the cookbooks for easy reference. i already used the foldout poster of a strengthening sequence. did that this morning. much more challenging than the usual sun salutations. my friend, k, has committed to doing the cosmic cafe yoga class with me on available sundays. i am buoyed by the new year energy, uplifted by so much hope and motivation that fills my being at this moment. i can only hope that i will be vigilant in creating my life during the course of the year.
cc yoga is wonderful December 27, 2007
physically: skin itchy, muscles aware, emotionally: calm, strong, goal: read environmental due diligence, go to bed early, affirmation: i am fulfilling my full potential. daily action, check.
xmas is over December 26, 2007
physically: warm, itchy, hungry
emotionally: strong, calm, aware
goal: physical activity after work
affirmation: i am fulfilling my full potential
daily action, sun salutations, morning pages, check check check.
yesterday was perfect December 24, 2007
daily action, check. morning pages, check. yesterday was a perfect day. physically: fine, emotionally: slightly melancholy, slightly lonely, calm, distant, goal: leave my flat and keep my social appointments, affirmation: i am strong.
finally, friday December 21, 2007
physically: awake, rested, semi-warm, emotionally: calm, goal: get through both jobs, affirmation: i am strong. daily action, sun salutations, morning pages, check.
one more day December 20, 2007
physically: tired, sore, emotionally: aware, calm, collected, determined, goal: call feed store about birds, affirmation: i am strong. i will get through this.
daily action, morning pages, sun salutation for thurs, check.
